So, I’m writing her eulogy..my brothers and I are both speaking. I have written it. I read it, I think I like it, I still need to have my editor read it..if I let him. Not sure, yet.
She isn’t gone, but we know it is imminent. I am prepared for a total meltdown…I hope the people on call are ready for it…because I think my generally sanguine attitude might fool them about the mess that I am about to be.
It got me thinking…do we ever really think about our eulogy, and what it would say? We think about our goals, what we want, what we DON’T want..but who wants to think about what people say about them after they die. Doesn’t it change for all of us daily..until it doesn’t…
I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want lately…both immediately and in the future. How I plan to shape my new life which has been evolving beautifully not without a few, ahem, bumps. Fortunately, I’m an optimist, and the idea of sitting around unhappy isn’t part of my spirit.
So today…at any rate…this is what I would want my eulogy to say.. “She was loved totally and completely….she gave herself fully in every endeavor…she made a life for herself and her children that was not only good but beautiful…and she will be missed.”
I don’t care if I make a million dollars from writing. I don’t care if I live in a big house…well, actually, I like my small house a lot…enough to buy it in two years (landlord won’t sell yet)..I don’t care if I become famous or rich. All I care about is that the people that I love know that I love them everyday whether it is my children, my family or my dear sweet friends.
As always, I would ask for you to pray for peace and understanding for me and my family in this difficult time.